Random Update

Sunday, December 17th, 2006 @ 1:20am

So school’s officially out. And everyone else is out of the apartment. I like Christmas break and all, and I enjoy being with my family but I miss not having anyone around town. And to think that I have one more semester of college left… it’s almost impossible to think that I’ve already gone through 3 1/2 years of college. It’s kind of a nice surprise and scary at the same time, especially considering that I don’t know anything of what is ahead.

I’ve done a lot of thinking lately too, and I’ve come to term with a few of the issues I’ve been dealing with. Life isn’t perfect, and I don’t think it ever will be, but some loose ends are finally getting tied up…

The End of an Era

Sunday, November 5th, 2006 @ 1:23am

Band Seniors

So my life in marching band is now over. In a way, I’m actually quite sad. Never again will I be able to play on the field again. Sure, things were tough sometimes and unloading and loading the truck was a pain. But I really enjoyed it. The picture you see above is all of the seniors for 2006. I may not know all of them quite as well as I might like, but there is some sort of bond between us, even with me only participating in band for the short time of two years. I will say this much, if I attend any Samford games next year, which I most likely will if I live in the area, it will be a very odd feeling. It won’t quite feel the same actually sitting in the stands watching as opposed to playing. I can’t quite fathom that feeling yet…

The infamous Donaldson project(s) still loom over my head. I really have been working hard on this project, but it’s honestly going nowhere. I have some sort of bug in my code that I can’t quite track down… and it’s driving me crazy! I’m sure it’s something small and stupid, but I can’t find it. I honestly don’t know what I’m going to do if I can’t find/finish it by this next Tuesday. My only other hope is that no one else in the class has finished the project either and Donaldson will postpone the project again.

I also had a good talk with someone today. I honestly wish I could do more for people than just pray for them, but I honestly don’t know what I can do. I know God has given me a passion to help people, sometimes I just don’t know how. I know I need prayer myself, I am by no means a perfect person. But I pray that God will always provide to me a cheerful spirit that I can at least always be encouraging to others.

Ultimately, my goal is to strive to be like Him daily, and to grow closer in my relationship to Him. Sure, I have my own wants and needs in life, but it’s amazing how simple those seem when I really do focus on Him. It’s just disappointing that my human nature limits me sometimes to what kind of capacity God would provide if I truly had a heart for him 24/7. I know God will provide for me, I trust that He will provide for me. I truly and honestly believe that; I just need the patience to wait for His guidance.

Having a Downer

Monday, October 9th, 2006 @ 1:50am

I don’t know why, things just don’t seem to be going that well for me lately or rather I don’t feel like it at least. Maybe it’s all the stress of projects, homework, and work. I don’t know… I can’t really explain it. It’s like I’m waiting for something to happen… and it’s not happening. Sometimes I just don’t know what to do really. I feel like I need someone to confide into, but I don’t know who and I really don’t know what I would say if I did. I guess for anyone that is actually reading this, please pray for me. I don’t know what quite for yet, but please do. All I know with if things keep going the way they are, something good is bound to happen soon enough, it’s just tough to see that while you’re in the valley.


Sunday, October 1st, 2006 @ 10:06am

So I went bowling this past weekend (twice), once with Dana on Friday and once by myself on Saturday. I did pretty decently on Friday bowling an average of 130~140 or so, which is pretty normal for me. But it would figure on Saturday, when I was by myself that I bowled the best game I’ve ever bowled. For years, I’d been trying to break a score of 200, and I finally did it on my second game by hitting 211.

Anyway, I guess not too much exciting has really been going on. I finally got my car back, so I’m pretty happy about that. Although it’s making some strange noises now here and there so I’m not quite sure what to do about that.

I feel like I’m starting to have senioritis in a sense. To think that this is my last year of school kind of makes me sad. At times, school can really be frustrating, with all the homework, projects, and deadlines, yet I still really enjoy it. To think that I’m in my last year in college before I’m really out on my own, it’s quite a different feeling than anything I’ve had before…

And I just now happened to glance at the calendar on my computer. Is it really October already? It doesn’t feel like it should be October yet. The weather is still quite warm, and it feels like school has just started… Hard to believe it’s already been five weeks since.

Finding Direction

Tuesday, September 5th, 2006 @ 9:29pm

I must admit, it’s been quite an interesting week… or weekend, or whatever. But I can only say so much. I really don’t know if that many people read this, other than a select few but I guess it’s here for those of you that are interested, or bored, or just don’t have anything better to do.

Here am I, a college senior contemplating life… imagine that? God has impacted me a lot this weekend in ways that I can’t even begin to imagine. Yet oddly enough, I am okay with it. I was reading through Philippians and happened upon this verse which just kind of struck me out like a lightning bolt out of the blue, “Not that I speak in respect of want: for I have learned, in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content.” (Philippians 4:11) Do I still have questions? Yes. Will they ever be answered? I honestly can’t say. Yet even through all that, I can be content, because I know God will provide for me, even when I don’t deserve it. I was also read the following verse as well, “But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added to you.” (Matthew 6:33, see also Psalm 37:4) Now, I don’t think that if I put God first in everything He’ll just give me whatever I want… I certainly don’t expect that. But if I seek after God, my desires will become His desires, and that to me is just truely amazing. To be so closely in tune with God that His desires become yours. That is what I want to strive for, to seek God first in everything I do, then naturally everything else should fall into place. It’s just amazing what happens when you do give everything to God, all of a sudden you know everything is going to be okay, even when you still have doubts. It’s something I wish I could really put into words…

I’ve also come to realize what amazing people God has placed in my life. My friends are just amazing and are there for me when I’m down, and are there to pick me up no matter what condition I am in. I am really undeserving to have such friends that have to put up with me, because I know I’m not simple to deal with, but I’m thankful that they are willing to give up their time… for me. I pray that I will be available to do the same for them if they ever need it. I’ve also come to realize how amazing my Dad is. I mean, I like my Dad, and I always have. Even though we didn’t always get along he really has always been there for me, and always gives up time for me even with his busy work schedule. It just astounds me sometimes…

Anyway, sorry you had to read through all of that. I just wanted to jot some of my thoughts down so I could go back and look at them at a later date so I won’t forget anything. If you did read through all of that long post… yeah sorry about that. I know it’s not very entertaining but God’s doing something… I just don’t know what yet and it has me all excited. Anyway, on to other news…

My car got hit last week. But tomorrow, I might be finally putting it into a shop so I have to deal with that and get a rental car at the same time. It’s just been interesting to deal with insurance and all that, real excitement there. Also, we (Samford Band) get to go to Georgia Tech this weekend. I’m all excited about that, except that I have to drive the truck all the way over there so I’m going to have to drag someone along to keep me company. Any volunteers? Clint might show up as well, considering that Toccoa Falls is void of any entertainment apparently. So I’ll be glad to see him at the very least.

And if you did happen to read through all of the above, congratulations, and yet I apologize again for a third time. Just let me know what you think about all of that and if you have any suggestions (verses, opinions, ect.) or at least let me know that I’m just not talking to myself all of the time!

One time at band camp…

Sunday, August 13th, 2006 @ 9:59pm

Yeah, work has officially ended and school has officially started with the start of band camp. Not much has really gone on in that department yet, but I’m sure if anything happens you’ll be sure to find out.

I got to also tour the new music building on Samford, and it’s just amazing. The new recital hall will be really nice once it’s finished, and I’m sure all of the instrumentalists will enjoy the new practice rooms. The building is still a long way from being finished, but it will look really nice once it’s complete.

I also met with our new band director, and he was really nice. He seems like he really wants to work at what he’s doing. I just only hope he works as hard as Dr. Min did.

So yeah, I guess this next two weeks will kind of be the start of my last year in school. It’s kind of refreshing, yet at the same time a little sad. If you really think about it, I’ve been in school for at least 18 years and it’s almost over. This year is going to be tough, considering I’ll have a lot of things going on, and a lot of things on my mind in general. I have to think about what I’m actually going to do once I get out, and some things to settle this coming semester as well. But I’m trying not to push too hard to do things, and keep myself calm. God will lead me through it I’m sure…

On a little side note as well, pit should be entertaining at the very least. Beth Ann and Justin are on the marimba. Anna is on vibes, and the new freshman we have coming in is either on vibes as well, or maybe xylophone. And me? I’m on timpani, exactly where I wanted to be, so this should be an exciting two weeks.

The Simple Things in Life

Tuesday, July 25th, 2006 @ 7:40pm

Life is so, so sweet

I was originally going to make this long intricate post about things. But Calvin describes it so well. It’s amazing how so many people aspire to do great things, or achieve a specific goal. Not that either one is a bad thing in it’s own right, but the majority of the time it’s the simple things that really make an impact on your life. I guess I’ve had plenty of time this summer to consider my future and what kind of things I would like to happen, but I’ve come to the reality that there’s honestly not that much I want in life to be happy. I honestly don’t care if I have a high paying job, I just want to do something where I can be happy. I would love to have a wife and a family someday as well, someone that I enjoy spending time with. Kids that I can watch grow up and play with them. I don’t think that’s too much to ask for, is it?

It’s like the Peanuts comics, “Happyness is…” It’s the simple things that really make life special. Spending time with friends. Enjoying a hot (humid if you’re in Alabama) summer day outside. Exploring some place new that you’ve never been before. Sometimes I wish I could go back to being 10 when life felt so much simpler than it did now.

It’s about time…

Friday, June 16th, 2006 @ 12:06am

…to make another post I suppose. I guess there really hasn’t been too much going on, or really too much to say. Sleep, eat, work, eat, sleep. That almost describes my day(s) in a nutshell. Work’s going a little more smoothly than in the beginning, and I believe I now have a slight hang of it yet. I’m still not sure if this is exactly what I want to do for a living; but for the moment it pays the bills so I can’t really complain. But the weekend is coming up, so that’s exciting!

Clint and Dana have been over on various nights so that’s actually not too bad. It can get quite lonely if you have to spend several hours by yourself in the apartment. So I’ve been doing a good bit of reading and errands here and there when needed. I’ve gotten a good deal of piano practice in as well, and am working on an arrangement too so I suppose that’s not too bad. I haven’t been able to practice any saxophone yet since I need to get some reeds… but I suppose I’ll get those when my next paycheck comes in…

Oh yeah. I found a little song called Code Monkey that for some reason reminds me of my job… except my manager’s name isn’t Rob… and he’s not really boring. And I don’t really care too much for Mountain Dew, although Fritos are okay…

It’s Just Me, Myself, and I…

Tuesday, May 30th, 2006 @ 7:43pm

So I’m pretty much here at the apartment by myself now for the summer. Jeremy’s headed off to London/Spain. Kevin is well… who knows where. I haven’t seen him in weeks. But it should prove to be an interesting summer though.

I did enjoy my weekend however. Cleaned the majority of the apartment Sunday afternoon for some reason. I should’ve cleaned my car, it’s awful! It still has dirt and bugs from driving back from Dothan. We went bowling that afternoon too, I think I got a 132 the first game, then a 139 the 2nd so I was fairly pleased.

Monday was a holiday, so I didn’t work. Enjoyed sleeping in, which is becoming even more rare these days. Brought Jeremy to the airport so he could fly off for the summer. Oh well. Came back and ate lunch, then hung out with Dana for the afternoon. Oh yeah, Clint if you’re reading this, we watched The Italian Job. It was a really good movie, I was quite impressed!

Also becoming a little more comfortable with my job too. I’m still undecided if it’s exactly what I want to do yet, but I’ll give it a little more time and let it settle in some.

What a Week…

Saturday, May 27th, 2006 @ 12:04pm

Wow. That’s all I have to say about this week. The first week of my first “job” is over, and it’s been quite a week. For those of you who don’t know, I recently just got a programming internship at Infinity Insurance and it’s been very interesting. It’s been somewhat of a rough start, since at the beginning it was really slow, but it’s getting better. I was given a sort of project on Thursday, so once I get a better handle on that I’m sure it’ll be a lot better.

But I’ll be working 8-4:30 for 5 days a week, and it’s a really nice paying job, and should get me a lot of java programming experience. Although, I’m not sure if programming is exactly what I want to do but I’ll have a better grasp on that at the end of the summer if it’s really what I want to get into.

Jeremy leaves for London next Monday, so I’ll pretty much be by myself at the apartment for the whole summer. My other roommate’s work schedule is at night, and I’m during the day, so I won’t see him… not like I really see him that much right now anyway…